AllieKat4258

A whore today. I promised not to kill myself over the winter break because my ex boyfriend said he would kiss me one last time. I feel like everything i do it my last time doing it. This feels like my last Christmas and i feel horrible because i don't like people spending money on me. I feel like i owe them. I'm not a Christmas-y person i used to be when i was little. When i was little i was happy I wasn't depressed, suicidal, a self-harming freak. Everyone leaves me. Why shouldn't I leave them because then I wouldn't owe them anything. Wait actually i would. I'd owe them a funeral and all the expenses. I feel horrible all the time. More than